Changing your Perspective!

The most powerful, longest lasting message I have ever heard was that centered around Leah. Leah; the wife of Jacob whom he was tricked into marrying, who wasn't loved by her husband and who was overshadowed by her beautiful younger sister. Yet she was the mother of Judah whom Jesus was a decent of. As women it's so easy to get caught in the here and now. What's going on in our immediate lives and more often than not we measure our worth based on the feelings of those around us. I have personally been where Leah was. There is a saying that there is nothing going on now that can't be found in the bible and I must admit this is a true statement. Leah loved her husband and no matter what she did she couldn't win his heart. In Genesis 29:32-34 it breaks down Leah's desire for her husband and  her desperation for his love. She gave him sons; a precious thing, something Rachel could not do for she was barren but her heart was in the wrong place. With Reuben's birth she said "... now therefore my husband will love me. (Genesis 29:32)". Followed by Simeon whom she said was a gift from the Lord because he knew she was hated. How many women do you know that have had children just to have someone to love them back. Not realizing that it's a one way street with a child for a long time and a mother's job consists of a lot more give than take. Lastly Leah bare Levi and said "... now this time my husband be joined unto me, because I have born him three sons..." Leah's heart was not in the right place! She was baring children for Jacob to earn something that can't be forced. Leah desired her husbands love so much that she kept putting herself through labor and child birth simply for a chance that he may change his mind and love her back. If you have ever felt a contraction you know that this is not a small thing which solidifies to me the extent of her love for this man.This story hits home for me because I too have loved someone who didn't love me and there wasn't a tear, a talk, a plea that would allow him to surrender his heart to me. The more I tried to save the relationship the farther and farther he got until we became completely estranged leaving our son is in the mist of it. When you are in a loveless relationship things go from grey to grim very quickly and the only thing that can save your sanity, your heart and maybe your life is changing your perspective. Leah bore a 4th son to her husband but this time she says "... now will I praise the Lord..(Genesis 29:35)" Her perspective changed and God closed her womb. She no longer needed to be pregnant baring sons to be seen. She shifted her vision from gaining her husbands love to praising God and she became the bloodline of Jesus. That's just amazing to me. Someone who no one deemed important, the ugly duckling that was mistreated gave life ultimately to our Savior. No matter what your going through, no matter how people treat you or what they say about you know that God has a purpose for you. You may not even live to see your purpose fulfilled but paving the way for future generations is the plan. I don't know why I was hurt, mistreated, walked away from but if my testimony can help one person make it out of their dark days I know it was worth it.

I want to wish all the mothers a happy mothers day and shout out the fathers who are playing both rolls as well. It's a hard job and it's underpaid and overworked but we are building up our future generations to be heirs of the kingdom. If you have a Leah spirit strive daily to get to that perspective change. The moment I switched my focus from a man to God my life has gone from rock bottom to a place where I know I can make it. Trust in God completely and he will direct your path fulfilling your every desire and more.